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Name: Wee
Country: Singapore
Metro: Singapore
Birthday: 6/1/1981
Gender: Male
Interests: Music, playing guitar, soccer, fishing, reading, playing games.
Expertise: Jack of all trades, master of none
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
Message: message me
Member Since:
3/20/2005
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| Why I love her? Why I love her? I am also unsure. There are millions of females out there in the world, but I love her only. Is it predestined? Love at first sight? I seriously don’t know. But here are the things I know. I love her sweet smile, which will reveal her pearly-white front teeth, whenever I tease her and make her laugh. I love her look when she remains emotionless, her mouth so delicate, soft and tiny. Her eyes will stare straight ahead, a picture of innocence. I love her kiss, so tender and soft, melts my heart every time. I love her tender love and consideration for me. She always questions wherever I hail a cab: “You very support the taxi driver is it?” Ha-ha, I hail a taxi for her convenience; she stops me for my wallet’s sake... Not just once, on numerous occasions, she tells me she will give me everything I want. Well, she has given me enough, more than I bargained for… I love her little actions. When I take a deep breath out of fatigue, she will gently stroke my chest. When my mouth is dirty, she takes a clean tissue and wipes. When my head is full of sweat, she dries with her hands. When dirt collects in my eyes, she helps me remove. The list continues… Dear, I love you. You will always remain close to my heart. | | |
| What makes me attracted to her? Is it the looks, the body, or the personality? I like that jovial personality, that straightforward manner and often sharp tongue of hers. She always enjoys a good laugh, and is unafraid to be wrong and ridiculed. Though she is often blunt and speaks her mind, she has a kind heart and a gentle side that waits to come out when she meets the right guy. She wants a strong guy, someone who is able to care for her, and yet at the same time is focused and successful in his career. She longs to be a princess, well-taken care of and to be always feeling secured in the hands of her prince. Her prince has to be the best of the lot, smart and witty, intelligent and kind, sharp and wise. The prince has to love her with all his heart and protect her from all that might harm her. In return, she pledges her life and eternal loyalty to her prince. She will help her prince in everyway, willing to struggle and fight, so long as her prince is by her side. The prince sees that in her, because usually when a girl is so hard to be wooed and won over, when you win her heart and break down all her walls, she will run to you. You will become her walls, she will live in your innermost being, and the prince’s dream of becoming one and finally to feel whole (well the prince has lived half his life feeling that he is missing something and is incomplete) will be realized. She is independent yet, dependent. She wants to live her life to the fullest, she wants to work hard in life, but whenever she is in need and trouble, she screams for her prince. Her prince will fly immediately to her aid, swooping to her and rescuing her before she falls. Her prince loves her because she displays dual qualities, unlike many others, who are either too strong or too soft. She has a good balance of qualities. She wants someone who loves her for who she is inside, but still she cares a lot about her outer appearance. She is really insecure. She believe only in herself, yet still she feels inadequate and wants to find someone who can give her security and help in her greatest need. In short, she is one screwed-up lady, whose behavior is driving many suitors away. But, it is precisely this behavior which will, if she be lucky, help her sift out the best from the lot! The guy who can win her heart is someone who sees the gem in her, and is willing to suffer for long periods, but always remaining focused in the end result, which is to win her heart, marry her and for the rest of his life, he will have a sweet lady who worships and adores him madly, who blindly believes in him alone, because this guy is fantastic! This guy is strong and is able to withstand her erratic tantrum and wild temperament, able to stick to the end, even when she keeps pushing him off. Can such a guy exist? Am I able to become such a guy, possibly by the grace of God, strong as strong can be? | | |
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Life Story No. 1, An Evangelistic Concert
A number of years ago, I organized and conducted an evangelistic concert in church. The sole intent of the concert was to evangelize and reach out to the friends of the people in my cell group. The idea came about from a moment of inspiration as I was listening to a musical piano piece titled “Vivre!” from the album “Shines of Glory”. “Vivre” means “be alive”. It is a soothing piece of music that is simple yet beautiful. It speaks to my heart and soul in a way that I know not how to describe. All I know is that it warms my heart whenever I listen to it, and it always leaves me at peace and full of hope after I listened to it. Then, it was the December of 1998.
First, I organized a meeting whereby I brought up the idea of an evangelistic concert to my cell group members. There were mixed reactions. Some were enthusiastic while others were lukewarm. None of them openly voiced out the impracticality of such an evangelistic concert, which was due to the limited manpower we had. We have less than 10 people in our cell group whereas I envisioned the concert to be grand and having a total audience of 100 people, and we will use the main hall for Chinese congregation for the concert. My first hurdle was to convince my cell group members to whole heartedly give their all for such a concert. I prayed a lot and was very passionate whenever I talked about the evangelistic concert. With time, I was able to rub on them and infected them with the same passion and desire for the concert. The date we set for the concert was about a year from that first meeting. And henceforth we started working on the concert, to turn a dream into reality.
Not much was done at the onset. We only had occasional meetings to discuss about the concert as it was quite far away and we were all so busy. I went about asking various friends outside of my church whom I knew were musical talents to help in the concert, since we were short on manpower. They agreed initially (1 year before the concert) but it was only nearing the concert when I call again that they told me they were unable to help. Fortunately, their being unable to help had no negative effect whatsoever on the concert.
The flow of the concert was come up by me. I sourced from various Christian music tracks before settling for the final selections of songs for the concert. The idea was that the songs were to slowly bring the audience into a peaceful and contemplative state of mind. They started out fast, and became slower, until the sermon part, which brought them up to another emotional peak as the sermon was read. At the end, there was to be an altar call.
I wrote the evangelistic sermon for the concert, using information which I had gathered from various gospel tracts. The sermon was to be insightful and true, able to get the listeners to reflect upon their current state of life and inspire them to make a decision that very day to receive Christ and hence, their life would never be the same again! It was to be the highlight of the concert, and “Vivre!” was to be played while the sermon was read, so as to enhance the effectiveness of the sermon. I envisioned that the effect would be tremendous and irresistible. I started all these in June 1999, to be ready by December of the same year.
It was only after our exams, in late November 1999, when we gathered and started our first rehearsal. It was an intense period when we met frequently to practice. Everything went smoothly, just that we forgot to start calling and inviting our friends to the concert! And so, there was a last minute rush to get our friends to the concert. In the end, the turnout was only about 20 people and we didn’t use the main hall. We used the smaller rooms instead, which had a maximum seating capacity of only 30 people. But hey, the concert turned out just fine! The flow of the concert went according to plan. The sermon was stirring. At the end, 1 person prayed to receive Christ! Hallelujah!
The feedback I received was that it was a moving piece of concert. Some thanked me for taking the initiative and effort to organize the concert. My only regret was that I was unable to get more people to attend. Well, back then, I was really shy and if I were as bold as I am now… Well, if only…
The story that you have just read is but the 1st of a series of my life stories which I have written as part of my psychoanalytical test to identify my Dream Job! | | |
| Wow, it has been a long time since I last wrote something here. Glad there are no electronic spiderwebs around here, hehe.
My spirit was too strifled to write anything for the past few months. But now's different. Having finished the exams and FYP, I felt so free. As I look back, I promise myself NEVER EVER AGAIN will I allow a person or an organisation to cage me again.
But yet at the same time, there is this unshakable and irritating feeling of dread and fear as I approach the next stage of my life. I am apprehensive, knowing that a wrong move will cage me once again, and imprison my soul. Maybe some of us out there fancy the idea of rigid walls that imprison but at the same time protect the person within. But hey not me, I know myself. I can only fly when I am unchained and free...
Freedom is to die for. Yeeeaahh! | | |
| Currently reading the book "Tuesday with Morrie". A great book!
"Tuesday with Morrie" examines life and is based on a true story of the life of Morrie Schwartz, during his last days as he shared his life experiences with his ex-student, Mitch Albom, the author of the book.
Cried on numerous occasions as I read the book.
Some of his famous aphorisms includes:
"The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in."
"Everyone knows they're going to die, but nobody believes it. If we did, we would do things differently."
"The truth is, once you learn how to die, you learn how to live."
"In the beginning of life, when we are infants, we need others to survive, right? And at the end of life, when you get like me, you need others to survive, right? . . . But here's the secret: in between, we need others as well."
"That's what we're all looking for. A certain peace with the idea of dying. If we know, in the end, that we can ultimately have that peace with dying, then we can finally do the really hard thing . . . make peace with living."
Think about his words my friends. | | |
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